i need sleep. but i cant.

i was thinkin last night about writing and how beatutiful it is.

look apon past lyrics or poems or diarys, and watch yourself live.

i record and playback what i wrote,

i enjoy watching myself grow.

pictures on my wall show my rise and fall.

you can explore it all.

vertical vision as i lay down eyes swimmin towards photos

i've lost mental comfort as i wear your old clothes.

see, life is unpredictable and i wonder if its still inside you.

you're still in love and so am i, but we feel no use to try.

so for now, goodbye. ive got too many past intentions that i

never let go astray. 

and maybe with sometime away 

you'll get your sweaters back.

and it makes me laugh 

at gym shorts 

your 

un-mended pants, 

along with notes that spoke

of our plans.

(scat)

unconditional love slowly fell down.

wishin you were here to turn me around.

im so terribly sad. lets see what comes out for the next week or so :(




hoping you'll relise what a fool you're being....

happy mommass day.

today i woke up, made my mind up

as i wear my own skin, drink me in.

cause im not really alone, cause your

house is no longer my second home.

i can smile, learn to love myself just a little more.

and i wont be fed up, wont be let down, i wont be bored.

my moms adorable and im writing a song about her on here soon.

prolly later today.

needs work..

i keep no secrets from the ocean,
thats inside me, i follow the current and let all
the tears escape from me, is it really worth it?
to live in the past? let the emotion drown in the
ocean, you'll be better off at last?

sometimes inside me, the storm starts at my very center
the waves crash inside me, when i deal with insecurity
iron-y, are you over me? cause it seems i need to know..

why is it that, i reach for a cigarette,
and think of how you'd laugh when id pull..
its not fair, shes not me, its not there anymore.
and im sorry if i sound upset,
im just alone in past moments..
and i feel as if we never met..
i cant get .. over... it.
i saw you.. the other night,
your eyes met mine i was afraid to hold it
and take a look.. i found you were a page
from the beginning of my book..

(can not reveal name or harmony)
his melody inside me.


needs a lot of work. just started singing it. i might as well have it down and fix it later with instrumentals and friends. :) this is such a good place to record my feeling anytime anyplace. word bye.