cold hands pushed into pockets. discomfort. winter. end. its april. winter. end. sun. shine. once again.

we see the silky night sky painted in our minds eye.

from a ledge, we stand comforted by the edge.

the moon is so damn close, i wanna take a bite.

the clouds are so damn near i wanna take flight.

tangible tears. like rain. you put out the sun.

broken is this piece of what was once one.

gone. gone. gone.

again and again i try,

run it over again

& again in my mind.

how damn blurred was my sight? breathe. let go. escape fate.

i've got somethin new

somethin new to groove to.

i wanna feel that beat vibrate.

thrown us into a sweet escape.

dipping diving imma let my voice swing!

zing zing!

funky calamity!

diving dipping imma let my voice swing!

zing zing!

funky calamity.

let your thoughts collapse.
relax relax. slip into your center.

tilt your head back, paint a picture of a wish

& let yourself slip into bliss. today is the day

to forget what you miss.

i woke up to patterns of kisses forming along my spine.

smooth hands & heated breath, illuminated you softly said

"you are gorgeous."

eyes still closed a grin slides across my lips.

i twist for a morning kiss.

i am simply so in love with every little thing about you.

color blind you see the sky in a different shade of light.

sense entering my life, you have provided more & more insight.

i know a lot of cinics who say that they should give up on love.

that its never going to happen.

that they've dated so many assholes

that they cant stand to date another one.

but i just feel the need to state that

there really are guys out there..

who will care more about being your friend first

then getting into your pants.

there's guys out there..

that will wake up next to you..

kiss you awake and tell you

you're beautiful every morning.

one day you could meet someone

who will stay in & cuddle all day with you

while its that time of the month rather then go out.

someone who will write you little love notes

and stick them in your pocket

when you arnt paying attention.

someone who looks at you and see's you.. flaws and all.

and still thinks you are one of the most amazing people they've ever met.

i know this because i feel it every single day.. ive felt it every single day for over a year now.. brian todd gives me so much hope for the world.

and its really beautiful how he does it without really "trying."

hold your breath.

dive & decend.

do not break just to mend.

can you see the wavy sun caught up in a blue crush?

blades of grass wave & the wind give you a subtle touch.

oh how i long for scraped knees & muddy toes once more.

winter has kept me confined while ive longed to explore.

i'm brand new this year, newly improved.

and this time i dont plan to loose my groove.

there's no one left but us to blame.

the time has come for me to change my ways.

high in the sky.

the wavy sun.

im gunna run run run.

i held it so close.

so close that i didnt realize

how far it should have been.

i grasped it in my hand but felt it slipping away..

my fingers fumbled. my brain was sent into panic.

then i'd regain my grasp and feel almost at ease.

but soon the slipping turned into pulling.

what is it i grasp? my past.

attached shouldnt mean identity.

why is it when i think of you my heart gets heavy?

attatched shouldnt mean identity..

our every day has been sucked away,

down the drain along with your rain.

you are a rainstorm, falling falling from my ceiling.

excuse me, but when sleep can a postpone my feeling?

21st Mar 2011 tumblrbot asked: WHAT IS YOUR EARLIEST HUMAN MEMORY?im in the kitchen of my first house, there’s a screen door right across from me and the sun is spilling onto the floor. my mom is at the kitchen table smiling at me.


i dont need your poison
rippling through my viens.
from this day on we will never be the same.

and i feel the beat,
gotta let you know..
rhythm flows wherever i go.

i lay under the willow, the ground no longer wet.
i feel renewed.. so lets take a guess.
get whats off our chests & perpetually progress.

i want to feel it.
hear it click as it connects,
and we respectfully reflect.

still on my way, been a long time now.
fell into a hole and only i can hoist myself out.
but it’s really not as big, as it’ll turn around.
still on my way, been sucha sweet time now.
i’m really not so complicated as i’ll find out.

i sewed a sweater into a hoop scarf.. for TEN hours and only stopped to eat tacos, smoke bowls, go to the bathroom, and eat icecream. i even rode in leeannes car with her and sewed in there haha. i’m really getting a better knack for it.. my fingers move so swifty.. yet i occassionally stabbbb my fingers or palms -_- and when i find my sewing machine my back will thank me. its killin me right now but i feel really really good, its practically done.. i wanna add big wooden buttons to the sides so im gunna stop at wal*mart for that. i cant continue working on it and i set up a needle and thread and realized all the work to shape it was done and got dissapointed. i have so much more old clothes to work on.. i seriously can believe how much clothes i found in my basement.. had to wash them twice to get rid of that awful basement odor. im really excited cause half the clothes are mine.. uglyyy shirts but good patterns! im also using my brothers old sweaters.. im just really stoked.. this yet another something that i enjoy and can do for free! i have so much potential fabric and honestly im so relieved. due to my lack on money sitution i’ve been bummed about not being able to create clothing like ive been craving to.. and this girl on etsy inspired me she recycles all her old clothes. gahhh its 420 am. biz & sleepies.

some people say, life's a game.
& we're all just gettin played.
some people say, we all reach end of the road,
we all hit a point where livin life gets old.
but not me, no not me!
life can be so filled

with so much beauty!
you wont see if you dont believe me!
life can be simplicity,
we can dance, we have feet!
life can be simplicity,
we can dance, we have feet!
oh to be ordinary.. now that is so scary to me.
i have not the slightest desire to drown in normalcy.
i can dance! i have feet!


im gunna grab your sound and wrap it round.



two girls, best friends.
i hate to know how this story ends.
why did you catch impulse to hide,
find the need to fall inside of lies.
of course i hope that somewhere
under all the insults you care..

indian giver

here we are again, it feels much like i slipped back in time.
i was a fool to assume she was the rhythm to my rhyme.

im free of you, and everything you put me through.
i deserve a friend who truely cares, who shows me that
she loves me. not by buying me anything, but with
simple emotion communication & motion.

pounding. i walk. picking up speed.

i hold on to thoughts. when i need to let go and release.

my toes touch the slick wood floors,

i glide from room to room.

i'm really gunna miss this house.

inside her mind lies a complex context.

lemme get my groove outta my back pocket.

roll with the punches, shoot out lika rocket.

take off my sunglasses, throw down my bag.
i grab the mic & start steppin to my skat.

i can feel the beat in my chest.

thats where music knows me best.

ooohhh.

ooohwowoooh.

dancin' inside my groove.

oooohhh.

ooohhwoowoooh.

very inspiring.

"every atom in your body came from a star that exploded.
and the atoms in your left hand probably came from a different
star than your right. it really is the most poetic thing i
know about physics. you all are stardust." -lawrence krauss


"the universe is all that is, or ever was, or ever will be.
our contemplations of the cosmos stir us. there’s a tingling
in the spine, a catch in the voice, a faint sensation
as if a distant memory of falling from a great height.
we know we are approaching the grandest of mysteries.
the cosmos is within us." - carl sagan

so although the quotes are beautiful

and inspiring of course i questioned it.

and found that stars actually go through fazes

converting elements from one to another through fusion,

so a H atom is converted into helium, and this continues to occur,

becoming denser and denser material.

This happens until they reach extremely dense elements such as zinc.

So a star exploding could contain a number of elements,

not just hydrogen.

Further when organisms ingest or use materials

they have the ability to change them from one element to another.

In short just because you have an atom that is hydrogen,

doesn't mean it was always such so every part of you did come from a star.

Solar systems are the result of star collisions and explosions

so we all of our atoms were once a part of a star.

still fucking awesome!