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love, it occupies a mind like captured butterflies,

being released for the very first time. and out of control, 

.. even inside of it all.. he is simple, 

yet complex but he makes my world make sense.

yet he confuses fascinates and amuses 

my life's strange effects. 

his mind lies that it's running out of time,

as he searches for things he may never find.

yet the way he loves me is divine. mid-sentence stopped

i'm speechless as he steals a kiss.

"thank you for making me feel like this."

i like my space when i sleep,

i find in anyones arms its too much heat.

it adds to all the sounds that never let me sleep.

but somehow in perfect temperature

we meet underneath.

no matter how much i moved

he's always intertwined in me.

his love

surrounding me untill i fell asleep.

even if i turned over.. he would wrap his arms somehow around me.

and all the sounds.. would fade away.

and today, 

may i diagnose the cause of my insomniac relapse?

maybe its much deeper

than i can actually see..

maybe its my exterior thats drowning me.

ill smoke cigarettes & try to distract myself

while i detach myself.

this goes away.. one day like

all the sounds, it will fade.

i opened my eyes this morning, i felt sweat

on my body and tore the covers off.

hot and cold sweats,

sniffles, sneezing,

itchy eyes, and an

occupied mind.