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so i opened my perception.. to a new open direction.

releasing insecurity that time once gave me. tryin to untangle from the time we once shared.. my heart still prodding its unfair. so i'm not completely there. its a bit embarrassing if you ask me.. to dwell on past uncertainties. where have you been? my old friend, forgotten. i lost you in the smoke the mirror i provoked. i am not sad to have let you go. i am just oh so, oh so puzzled... do you count as an acquaintance? flipping my coin? how is it that two beings loved another so much at one point? how did time so easily shape this? you once taught me, positive thoughts + positive actions = positive life. can you smile about that when you rest your head at night? is that even how you live.. although i still appreciate the gift. but i didnt expect to live it without you in it. i was so young when we met and yet its hard to forget. i have to stop blaming myself.. for the burden on your shelf. woulda been smooth sailin if you knew how to love yourself.