i need to get out of this town. more than half of the people ive loved.. gotten close to.. all are fake and dont give a shit about me.. most of them never did. i dont know what i'd do without brian, he's the hope i have.. that there's more people out there who will get me.. love me.. understand me rather than judge me.. with him i dont fear he will leave.. i look forward to the next day being alive with him in love. and its not scary.. im just scared of making friends now.. i havnt felt like this in years. i dont get why people dont seem to like me or understand me.. like i do get it.. but it still hurts.. im nice, i have good humor, i have good intentions.. why doesnt that make people wanna do the same?